Happy Memorial Day ...

This "holiday" weekend is always a hard one for me.  As I am sure it is for many others.  Three years ago this weekend, I was traveling across the country with Tom on our trip back home (to Alaska) on the Goldwing motorcycle.  We had traveled to NY for Tom's brothers wedding.  The second night of our trip home, we got a call from my best friends husband telling us that my best friend, Angela, had been killed in a 4-wheeler accident.   She was gone.  I was thousands of miles away and had to make a decision ... do I fly back to Alaska and help with whatever Buddy needed help with or do I stay on the trip with Tom?  After talking to Buddy a few times, I decided to stay on the trip with Tom.  I wanted to make sure he made it back to Alaska safely and I needed time to absorb the news about Ang.  I didn't need to get a call from a trooper or RCMP saying Tom had also had an accident.  By the time we made it home, pretty much everything had been done for Angela.  The only thing left was the memorial service.  Others were planning it and I was asked to help, but really felt left out of the loop.  It was like I was an outsider.  It's been three years. I am over all of that.  I do feel like I have not fully had closure and I am not sure how to make that happen.  I can't see Angela.  This spring while Buddy was moving out of state he gave me so much stuff that was their's or her's and I am reminded every day of how much I miss her.  So, this weekend was a hard one for me.  I miss my best friend and yet I know I need to move on.  She would want me to.  She was our party planner and I was the cook.  We had so much fun putting together the parties and that makes party planning bittersweet for me.  I have learned to enjoy it and find myself wanting to get our group together and have a good time.  I know she would want that to.

I miss you Angela.  I am thankful for the friendship we had and you will always be close to my heart and always in my memories!

Happy Memorial Day to all who have fought for our freedom and to those who are currently fighting for our freedom.